The Beginning

It was the marriage of my big bro, 
He was like everything to my family,his fiery personality, his bright eyes always emitting energy to fulfill the dreams of the  family, he was more to others then to himself always trying to keep all of the family together forever, 
He was smart intelligent free spirit very popular around the town as he plays very good cricket , and had many many friends... and what not to say about him he was very loving person, who sometimes became very angry at anyone.

We were dancing like mad middle class idiots; that was fun..
Then on one of the terrace I saw Ana wearing blue lehanga , golden earrings bright eyes , matching apparels, with the beautiful smile, watching me as an idiot sitting on a horse.

At that time I felt like I am sinking in he eyes , 

Her eyes were too deep for me to survive easily so I sank there for her and it felt like flowing in the air unconditionally.

Well it was a good encounter as my life before that was miserable.

 

From the very beginning of my life I was believed to be a good person, studious, and stupid of the house.

my physique was like tall thin alien head personality with dark circles around my eyes, and every time found myself depressed due to the family pressure;-

As I told already my bi brother was Hot headed person so as my mother and somewhat my sister also.

My father was the only person in the house who is satisfied with the life / he was never angry at anything in his life.

 


 

Final call

Its 14th Feb 2025 Valentines day

Looking back into so may years I felt I have done enough to fix the issues all my life but from today I will be free for myself .....

I remember the last meeting with Ana it was 29th Dec 2004 at her school where she was working, she was looking beautiful as she was always wearing blue suit, for the first time since we met I saw her crying, I was very nervous and confused when she asked me for her place in my life and I had no answer I was holding my sunglasses in  my hand and was not able to see in her eyes I completely looked down into my hand holding sunglasses...
It felt like I was unable to breathe and was unable to speak a word to comfort her and  her eyes filled with tears were asking me... what happened to you dear why you are not able to take me as your life mate why you are not strong enough to stand for me, why you broke all the promises we made.

I was unable to understand what can I do though thoughtless I continued to listen to her.
She told me that she was thinking that I will take her home and we will live together happily but...

That was the last meeting and I was very sorry for that as I have broken someones heart for the first time in my life.Some situations in life very difficult to handle.

The days passed and the day came it was 14th Feb 2005 our third year of love and I called her ;on that day she was silent and I said that It was my necessity to handle the situations in my family rather than going for my self comfort. It was very difficult for me also to handle the situations. We finally ended the call with a promise which I never told to anyone.